My great friend and celebrant, Greer (pictured in the middle at the rear), visited to discuss final arrangements, should I be so unlucky. I know it seems morbid but, for me, planning of this nature takes the anxiety away. She made it a fun and lively experience; although we did shed a few tears. Greer and I have been friends for over 15 years and she officiated at our wedding 13 years ago. Grant popped home for coffee and found us in the midst of planning the scenario. He was bewildered and speechless as to how I could cope going through these matters. He said there was no way that he would be able to do it if the tables were turned. I felt strong and brave. Afterwards I put it all in a box, locked it away in the cupboard and buried the key, metaphorically.Time magazine arrived in the post on Saturday and I couldn't help but notice the lead article featured on the front cover 'How Faith Can Heal'. Then I saw the date: February 23 2009, the very same day I am admitted to hospital. I take that as a good omen and take the recommendation to focus on my faith to help with the healing. Since our honeymoon, back in 1995, I have been a student at the School of Philosophy and along the way have learnt many tools that will assist with my recovery. I certainly will have lots of time to put them into practice.
Recently I discovered that not every patient, who doesn't go into remisson with leukemia, is offered the only cure for the disease: a bone marrow transplant. As part of the pre-treatment I underwent a number of blood, lung and heart tests to ascertain my suitability. I am thankful to have looked after my body well and that this is my only health condition.
Valentine's morning was especially sentimental at our house. I really wanted my loved ones to know the special places they hold in my heart. As anyone who has a serious health condition will attest, the personal anxiety makes for a stressful time on their close relationships. It was hearteneing to receive red roses and read Grant's card in which he assured me that he was there for me come what may.
And how is Grant feeling in the lead up to this? He knows that going for the BMT cure is the best thing to do. Rightfully, he is concerned for me facing this ordeal. He's not sure how he's going to cope without me, but he is thankful for my preparations with the 'Care For Neri' manual and the blog to keep everyone informed. During my convalescence, we plan to take more weekend trips away as it will be a while before I can mix with groups again.
Thanks to the many of you who have offered to help. I've taken a note of your details for Grant and Paul should they need them. It really is heartwarming to find that people pull together in tough times.
